WARNING...... This will be a very depressing post. Stop reading now if you don't want your heart to break.
Since I use our blog as my journal, I need to write this. My heart is so heavy and it just might break in two. An unthinkably sick crime was committed against a child in our city. When I saw it on the news yesterday (as the follow up to a story I'd been following for hours) I had to run into the bathroom to throw up. Sheer panic overtook my body and I haven't had an anxiety attack like that in over a year. How could someone do such a thing. How could so much evil consume a person? How can Satan be that influential? Sometimes I hate this world. It's enough for me to want to take my family, dig a hole, and hide inside. My children are not safe. Some people think I'm paranoid because I won't go in the backyard and play if one of my children is inside taking a nap. I never let my kids leave my sight if possible. Some might say I'm too controlling. But I say I don't have a choice. Terrible things happen when you stop watching. Terrible things happen even when you are watching. What is a parent to do? How can the Lord let things like that happen? I have shed so many tears in the last day. When I close my eyes all I can see is that child's face, the face they showed so many times on the news. As I've thought about it non-stop these last 24 hours, this is what keeps coming to mind:
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
My thoughts and prayers continue to go out to this family.
Since I use our blog as my journal, I need to write this. My heart is so heavy and it just might break in two. An unthinkably sick crime was committed against a child in our city. When I saw it on the news yesterday (as the follow up to a story I'd been following for hours) I had to run into the bathroom to throw up. Sheer panic overtook my body and I haven't had an anxiety attack like that in over a year. How could someone do such a thing. How could so much evil consume a person? How can Satan be that influential? Sometimes I hate this world. It's enough for me to want to take my family, dig a hole, and hide inside. My children are not safe. Some people think I'm paranoid because I won't go in the backyard and play if one of my children is inside taking a nap. I never let my kids leave my sight if possible. Some might say I'm too controlling. But I say I don't have a choice. Terrible things happen when you stop watching. Terrible things happen even when you are watching. What is a parent to do? How can the Lord let things like that happen? I have shed so many tears in the last day. When I close my eyes all I can see is that child's face, the face they showed so many times on the news. As I've thought about it non-stop these last 24 hours, this is what keeps coming to mind:
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." John 14:27
My thoughts and prayers continue to go out to this family.
My mom was telling me about what happened yesterday. That is so sad. I appreciate Alaska so much because of the safety I feel here. In the year we have lived here there has not been one child abduction or anything. That is so scary it happened in NSL!
ReplyDeleteI am so sad it happened also, I have been following it close and cannot imagine the pain the family must be going through. My thoughts and prayers are with them as well.
ReplyDeletePS I loved the video you made of Hailey's birth, you did a great job I love that song!!
Amen to that. When I heard, I couldn't sleep that night. It's a sad day when you don't even feel safe enough to sleep in your own locked house. Jake and I look at each other all the time and say "Why can't the second coming just come already?!" I don't want my daughter raised in this horrible world. Being a mother has changed my perspective on everything!
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