"I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life;
to put to rout all that was not life and not when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived." ~Henry David Thoreau

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The Greatest Loss

The greatest loss I feel is never knowing him. In a matter of seconds, every bit of his DNA make up was in place. He would have been a living and breathing person with fingernails, skin, a personality, hair color, aptitude for music, a birth mark, pet peeves, sensitivity to fabric softener, flat feet like his daddy, and aversion to beets just like his mommy...or who knows what. His physical life was set in place. All he needed from there on out was an incubator and a few short months to bloom. It was all there. And then something went wrong and what had been was changed to what could have been. I want to know that person. And I suppose the greatest loss I feel is losing that chance.

2 comments:

Julie said...

Veronica, I know how you feel. I had another m/c only a few days ago. It hurts so much. I wonder every second of every day how it could happen... again! I loved my little baby so much, I was already dreaming of him/her. And now, that dream is over, our baby will never join our family. I will never know who he/she was/would have been. I will never get to hold him/her in my arms.

Julie

Julie said...

Here is my family blog address, it is more active than my homeschool blog: http://growinglifeandnovel.blogspot.com/

Julie