Let's Try This Again

Here we go again. We found out that we are expecting again, and with that news came a lot of anxiety and fear. Especially since I cramped terribly for 4 days straight. It was so bad that I had to keep a heating pad on my belly and camp out on the couch. I went in for several days (every other day) to have my blood tested for HCG levels, and let's just say the level has been off the charts. At one point my doctor thought it was twins because the numbers were doubling so quickly.

I've been a nervous wreck for two weeks now wondering if things were going okay. Today I had my first ultrasound and that brought back some ver scary memories. Cody met me at the clinic and I was overcome with feelings of dejavu. When we got called back into the U/S room, I kept my composure even though I wanted to run. I kept imagining seeing something very sad on the screen. The tech was so sweet and accomodating and sensetive to my needs. It took her a while to find the baby and the whole time I was shaking and couldn't breathe. Then at one one point, she finally paused it and said "Congratulations! That is a perfect heart beat. I lost it and started bawling. Cody was really sweet to me and let me squueze the life out of his hand.

I am about 6 1/2 weeks and things are perfect. My doctor is very confidant that everything is going to be fine and I only have a 3-5% chance of losing the baby between now and October. I am so happy I don't know what to do with myself. I am sicker than a dog and my bras don't fit anymore, and every time I feel any bit of pregnancy discomfort I laugh and cry because I'm happy. It means that we have a healthy baby and I'm very grateful for all the discomforts! By the way, the doctor says that it's common to cramp with a pregnancy right after a miscarriage. Good to know!