"I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life;
to put to rout all that was not life and not when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived." ~Henry David Thoreau

Sunday, March 1, 2009

It's Amazing How One Forgets

I have to preface this post by saying how truly grateful I am for the uncomfortable baby symptoms I'm experiencing. With every pang of nausea is the reminder that a healthy baby is to blame. I keep comparing this to the pregnancy we lost in the fall and I was not this sick by any means. There wasn't enough HCG to cause the same sickness back then. SO my super high hormone levels this go around mean things are good. So every time that feeling swells up in my throat, I breathe a sigh of relief that the bean is still there. I put a copy of the ultrasound on the fridge and taped copies to the toilet tanks as well. So each time I'm puking my guts up I'm reminded what it's all for. And I'm so happy for that.

That being said, however, I feel awful. I get sick earlier and earlier each pregnancy. At five and a half weeks it hit in full force this time. Last weekend I was sitting at the piano practicing when I had to run to the bathroom for my first of many puke sessions. On Friday it lasted the entire day and the poor kids watched movie after movie while I laid on the couch. Yesterday wasn't as bad, but it was still pretty bad. Today has been horrible. I don't how I managed to keep playing during a few songs in primary. I've found that all I can tolerate is sucking on Jolly Rancher candies. Green apple ones. The more sour, the better. They seem to keep that heavy feeling in my throat at bay.

Nausea is even hitting in the middle of the night. Last night I barely slept because of it. I have medication to take for it which is affective, but I only use it as a last resort because I hate the side effects. Zofran causes me bad head aches and insomnia. It's always done this to me. I'd rather suffer through it for the next few weeks. But oh, what a long few weeks it will be.

This picture was taken right at six weeks. It's amazing how quickly I pop out. I don't understand women who can hide a pregnancy for months on end. In the next two weeks I will be in maternity pants (right now I'm wearing stretchy yoga-type pants everywhere). In the next three weeks I'm sure the maternity shirts will make an appearance too.


Miles and Bex said...

Congrats! Congrats! Congrats! We are excited for you. I am sorry about the sickness but it seems like you have a good attitude about it.

Mandy said...

Isn't it so great though? I keep telling myself (almost 5 months in...) that the end product makes it all worth it! :)

We are so happy for you!

Julie said...

Yes, it is worth it but it does not make is easier when you are spending half your days with your head down the toilet.

Do try to always keep something in your stomach, it will help greatly. And plain white slices of bread, toasted helps a lot too.


Ash said...

Congrats! Sorry that you're feeling so crummy, but congrats on why you're feeling that way!!

Living My Dream said...

I am sorry you are sick but I am so very happy that things are going great with the pregnancy! I am excited for you!!! And whatcha doing Friday? We are going to be your way with 5 of the younger kids.

Carli Webb said...

wow! you did pop out! I am 8 weeks and nothing! I mean, I feel like my pants are tighter, but I cant see any change yet.

Brock and Jennie said...

Congratulations! That is great news.

Amy said...

I think you are so cute! I love your little belly! I look about that far along and I don't even know if I am pregnant or not yet, so be thankful! About your friend that may be doing IVF, have her give me a call! I will talk to anybody about it, any time. It always helps to talk to somebody who has been there and done that. Also, if they don't make too much money there is a possibility that I can tell them how to get it for free! Let me know!

Becky said...

6 weeks! Yikes. You're adorable. I miss you. And congrats! On the pregnancy, not the bile vomit.